It's days like today when all I can do is ask the question: Why?
My nephew is on his way to the hospital in an ambulance because his hemoglobin levels are really low, and he has lost a lot of blood again. My grandma is in the hospital needing surgery on her heart and doesn't seem to be doing well. My family has been hit hard in the past year and a half with three deaths, this stuff and other stuff that has gone on.
I know God has a plan in everything, and I know His ways are not our ways, but I just wish I could understand even remotely why this is happening. I've tried to remain strong. I've tried blocking out the pain, but I just can't do it.
God promises that when we are weak, then, we are made strong in Him. He also says He will never leave us or forsake us.
Psalm 91 says:
1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”
Heavenly Father, I pray that You would make Yourself known to those that are suffering today, whether it be internal suffering, family problems, illness... whatever it may be, Lord, I pray that You would comfort those in need. Give strength to the weary and peace to those in turmoil. Amen