March 28, 2014

Oh, to be pursued by God!!!

This past month has been an interesting month. It's been fairly busy, but.. it's been pretty good. Problem is...I haven't been spending as much time with God as I should be.  I want to feel close to Him, I just have a hard time getting the motivation to do it.  It amazes and frustrates me how easy it is to get distracted and find yourself doing things that aren't as important. Next thing you know... you're not spending any time with God except maybe a couple minutes here and there.  This morning I was driving and "Closer to Your Heart" by Natalie Grant came on the radio.  After that, "Middle of your Heart" by For King and Country came on.  Let's just say, I got the message. After that song, "Kings and Queens" by Audio Adrenaline came on.  Then a few minutes later as I was pulling into my destination, "Closer to your Heart" came on AGAIN on a different radio station. I love it when God speaks to me, especially through music. I can't tell you how many times He has used a song, or in this situation multiple songs, to speak to me.  It brings a smile to my face and tears to my eyes when I realize I am being pursued by God and that He loves me. I love those reminders, especially when I have felt pretty dry for awhile.  My heart's desire really IS to be closer to God's heart. I've felt what it's like to be close to Him, and it is the best feeling in the world.

I have been doing a lot of thinking over the past several weeks, and I have come to the conclusion that I am pretty content with where I am right now.  I am completely content, if not happy, being single.  There are even some days where I'm really glad I don't have somebody else to deal with. lol  I have my son, but.. that's a different story.  I know that I do not need a man in my life to make me happy or to help support me.  I may not make a lot of money, but I make enough to have what I need, and that's just fine with me. I really am blessed.  I may not have any friends to hang out with, but I have a family who is extremely supportive and helps me out when they can.  I also have people from church who I can talk to and who pray for me when I need them to. I have other friends who live far away that I talk to, who make me laugh and also pray for me when I need them to.  Best of all, I have a God who is crazy about me and loves me no matter what.  What more do I need?  Sure, I still deal with conflict with certain people, but.. oh well. That's life, right?  Why in the world should I feel sorry for myself when there are people out there who have it far worse than me?

Oh, to be pursued by God!  :-)